The Boy

i saw my boyfriend's direct message on twitter. he used to have a prettier crush than me. he managed to sent messages to this girl 4 days after he sent me blackberry messenger. and now i am afraid, what if. what if we break up, will he chase after me?
i don't think so. there are billion girls better than i am, but only one in almost 7 billion loves him the way he is. i don't need to answer, he must know. i saw my boyfriend pranked my friend. i don't know whether he likes her or not.
he often look at me in the eye, but that was just.. sometimes. not too often now. i want to have him back, all mine. please dear God, i believe faith is with us. i believe you can choose him the best girl, woman to be with. it doesn't matter if i don't belong with him, but please find someone to look after him better than i did.
i am not perfect but i want to love him perfectly. i don't need to be given flowers or tons of chocolates, i just need a thing that its presence is unknown in biology, can not be described by chemistry, or even be solved by math. his love, inside the anonymous heaven-ish beautiful gorgeous dazzling place, named heart.
i remember the date 5 june, when he touched me in the heart, unlock its key, and take the love away with him. and now i see guys just like friends, except for him.
do you guys want to know the truth? he is not handsome, he doesn't have porsche or even white horse, he can't beat dragons, but he beat me. he bit every single piece of me. i just want to see him laughing and smiling as bright as the sun that shine beneath his black-as-ebony hair.
his smile is gorgeous in my eyes. i am all his. i hope he is all mine, too. i hope i am his best girl that he would ever have. i don't want to start all over, restarts are for cowards. i want to live my life, with him. we must learn from our mistakes in the past. i want to live in a better world with you. please take me if you will. i am waiting for your love to come to me.
but when i type these words on the keyboard, i can't stop. this is just nice, to show what i am feeling now. thanks, diary.

Sincerely,
anonymous