Birthday Boss

My dearest, closest, fairest, beardy friend is about to have his 18th birthday. I want to give him some surprise, of course. But he already have this off-the-hook-boys-said girl. She's beyond perfect but unfortunately I'm not that close to her.

The Birthday Boy (Boss) and Me:

We (some of my girl friends and boy friends) want to make surprise for him. I want to ask her if she got any idea but I don't want her to see me as a thread. I just want to do it as a friend gift, not more, not less. But maybe just maybe she has her own special plan.

God. Please make me go along with her. I'm a dumb. And.
















I don't know what to say anymore. I just want this one surprise to be perfect, just like my best friend gave me two presents for my birthday, they were perfect fits for me (a blouse and a pair of flat shoes).
I don't want to let my best friend down again. Ever.

Dreaming Dream High

 I have a dream, friends. I might having the biggest dream ever. I want to enroll to overseas university.

But honestly my father, grandmother, grandfather, uncles, and aunts, wont let me. But that's my dream!

I really want to live my dream. But how?

Now I'm trying to figure everything out. How to ask my please-life-penniless-I-don't-care-about-you new parents built of my dad and my stepmother some money to even have a TOEFL or IELTS test? or maybe, just maybe, finish my course fee first.

I hate it now I don't have my real mother, I'm having major financial problem. I don't shop much, but she does. I don't care. Daddy, please listen. She's not worth having you.

Oh now forget it, Talitha. You have a dream, and you got to reach for it no matter what. Because someday you will be this lucky successful woman, and anyone who was mean to you will regret ever said no to you.

And besides, you will make your family (especially blood related-HAH!) proud. Will make haters or mean people actually know that you are not that stupid.

Go get that scholarship!

Melancholy Movie

I passed through funny and melancholy movies. Sometimes I think that it is necessary to watch something new, or maybe something old or maybe odd, to widen your knowledge, your new point of view, and anything else.

I didn't cry on melancholy movies, even though my friends said that it is worth crying. I'm not that heartless, people. I just have strong heart.

Instead of making me cry, this kind of movie actually make me feel... like (this feeling is getting stronger and stronger every time I watch sad movies), you should love your lovers with all your heart, you don't need a feedback or you don't push them to love you back.

Maybe time will slowly hurt you, but it'll cure you too. It is just the matter of time. You'll be happy before you know it. Time will help you find your right-est answer. And also don't forget to pray to God. That's what really matters. No matter how happy or sad your life could be, He will listen to your prayers.

Dear Allah, in short time, I will go to college/university and maybe it will tear us apart or we will have long-distance relationship. And even so, I really want to strengthen this relationship or maybe take it further to the future. It may be silly, but this is the real thing I want to fight for my lover. Amin.