Too little too hard

Well my life is getting funnier every day. I feel free, but losing control. No one cares and no one wants to know why, nor to remind me when it's needed. To the point, I feel like I did something wrong, and made my best friend... leave me again. Perhaps.

It's funny too, when I feel like it's okay breaking up bazillion times as long as my friends is with me. I don't feel very lonely though I'm alone (they texted me to make sure that I didn't do anything silly). And lately it's hard for me to control my emotion. I really want to hit my face against the wall. I don't care if it hurts, as long as my brain is OK.